um . . . hello?  so haven't been on here in about 3 years, because I actually don't really remember posting the most recent blog, but anywho. . . . this thought has been deeply sitting in the back of my head for quite some time now and I just have to get it off my chest . . . well, I've talked to others about it but yes, I must say it one more time:

I don't think I want to be a teacher anymore!!  AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!  and THAT scares the crap out of me!  What in the heck am I going to do with my life with a bachelors and Master's degree in Middle Childhood Education??!!!  I'm going with hott librarian . . . .

that's it . . . . the news is out . . . . it's official . . . . I am completely, entirely, crazily, madly, head-over-heels in love . . . . . I've never felt something sooo strong before . . . . .until this past weekend.  Although I'm only a junior in college and in reality I haven't a clue about lots of things in life including the future . . . . for some reason I feel like I KNOW . . . . I feel like I can see my whole life flashing in front of me . . . I can picture the future, I can see it clearly, or at least who I will be spending it with . . . I can see finishing school, getting the master's, the marriage, traveling TONS, having the kids, and basically spending the rest of my life with this one person whom I love with all of my heart.  And the SCARIEST thing about it is . . . . it doesn't even sound that SCARY to me.   The fact that I can see all of this in my head and feel like I know for sure who I want to be with for the rest of my life does not scare me at all.   It just makes me smile, it makes me soooo happy, and it makes me feel soooo incredibly blessed by God to have the chance/opportunity to be with this person and to share my life with him.  It just feels soo right . . . . we are on the same "track" with so many things like religion, kids, family, beliefs . . . we have so many things in common, we order the exact same thing when eating out, we buy the same flippin things(tennis shoes, without planning it, lol), we laugh at the same humor and jokes, and we finish each other's sentences . . . . . it's not that I can't live without him or that he defines who I am . . . . . it's that he completes who I am . . . . he is my other half . . . . . and I would rather NOT live without him . . . . He just makes me soooo incredibly happy, I can feel God's spirit working between us, the connection between us, the tingles . . . . every kiss is just like the first . . . . . . every minute together makes me just want to spend another minute more . . . . . . . and every look, every gentle touch makes me realize how completely, madly in love with him I really am. Therefore, it's official . . . I am intoxicated . . . . intoxicated with LOVE!!!!  

my cup runneth over  

peace out playas

I've experienced more change in my life within the past year . . . . emotionally, socially, academically, in every way possible . . . . than I think in my entire life combined . . . . it has definitely been one gigantic rollercoaster . . . kind of like The Raptor at Cedar Point  . . . . .

let's just say I'm definitely ready for some stability . . . . you could almost say I'm waiting in line for a ride like  . . . like the SKYRIDE at Cedar Point!!  mmm, yes please!

peace out playas